OOTD | Denim Edge

New outfit of the day video up on my channel :)

For more info on the prices of the bits from Primark that I'm wearing, check out my recent payday haul video here. The boots are from boohoo.com but I purchased them from an eBay seller as my size was out of stock. I love a good bargain outfit!

The Big Announcement

New video up on my channel!

It feels really good to be able to get this off my chest, and I can't wait to start documenting my journey whether it be a success or a failure.

Please subscribe to my channel if you would like to see how this pans out! I would also love to hear from you if you have had a similar experience or any advice..

xx

The Liebster Award

Recently I have been nominated by two fabulous fellow bloggers, the lovely Sian and Roseanne, to do the 'Liebster Award' tag!

"The Liebster Award is for bloggers with under 300 followers and the rules of the award is that the nominee must link back to whoever awarded them, write 11 random facts about themselves, answer the 11 questions from the award giver, and then nominate other bloggers and make up 11 questions for them to answer.  It's a great way for new and undiscovered bloggers to meet new people, get more followers and find some blogs that they want to follow."

11 Random Facts About Me

1. My birthday is on New Years Eve (31st December) and I am well and truly a Capricorn.

2. I am a cat momma to two beautiful boys, Gary and Robbie.

 

3. I am the eldest of four siblings. I have two younger brothers, Sam and Thomas, and a little sister, Eleanor.

I would move mountains for the lot of them. <3

4. I am a massive geek.

5. I suffer with anxiety and every day is a battle to fight the fear.

6. Fruit Bat is the pet name my Mum has called me since I was little.

7. One of my dreams is to travel around Asia.

8. My boyfriend is seventeen years older than me and we have to deal with a lot of prejudice because of that. Age is just a number and love is limitless.

Plus he's a babe.

9. These are my earth angels.

10. I did Ballet for eleven years and wish I had stuck at it.

11. I am absolutely hopeless at getting up in a morning. I am in love with my bed.

Sian's Questions for Me

1. What made you start blogging?

I used to keep an online blog in my early teens, back in the days when Open Diary and Live Journal were king; so it's something I've had an interest in for a long time. Even then it was a great community to be a part of and I made lots of friends through having an online 'journal,' some of which I am still in touch with even after *cough*eleven*cough* years. I love reading different blogs and discovering new ones, there's so many out there now! I have also become unhealthily addicted to YouTube, again, the amount of great channels available to watch is insane. These all inspired me to start blogging/making videos again and I also made a resolution that I would be more creative this year - so here I am!

2. What is your biggest achievement?
Oh god, I hate questions like this as I'm always very hard on myself and don't ever feel like I've accomplished anything extraordinary. It probably sounds trivial, but the feeling I get when I finish a piece of artwork is when I am at my happiest. I like tangible things.

3. Favourite song?
I don't think I could pick just one favourite song; there are so many close to my heart. But if I have to I think it would be 'Lua' by Bright Eyes.

4. Milk, dark or white chocolate?
ALL OF IT.

5. What is your favourite palette? 
The Urban Decay Naked palettes are always winners.
6. Have you still kept your New Years resolutions?
Yes and no. My main resolution was to be creative again. I'm really happy that I decided to start this blog this year and can't see me giving up any time soon! However, I still want to start drawing and painting again and I haven't made the time to do this yet. All the other resolutions to get fitter and eat healthier went out the window long ago.
7. Biggest fear?
Spiders. Death. Death by spiders.
Living with an anxiety disorder it's difficult to pin point one fear as my biggest. I am constantly worrying and overthinking things which leaves me feeling scared the majority of the time. Most of my anxieties will revolve around fear of dying or fear of failure so they would probably be my biggest.
8. What is your favourite part of your make up routine? (Do you love contouring, applying mascara etc...)
Taking it off! Can't beat that feeling of having a freshly washed face.
9. Favourite colour? 
Red lips. Black clothes. Turquoise jewels. Pink hair.
10. Black or brown mascara? 
Black, by a country mile.
11. What is your favourite blog to read?

I love The Little Magpie by Amy Bell; this lady could wear anything and make it look like it's come straight out of Vogue. I also like Frilly and Fancy by the super cute Kalel and the outfits and quotes on Candyfloss Curls, Cupcakes and Couture by Elizabeth Daisy.

Roseanne's Questions for Me

 1. Favourite makeup brand?

My heart will always belong to Mac.
2. Favourite highstreet store? (beauty, fashion, anything...)

Waterstones - I can spend HOURS in that shop.

3. Favourite candle scent?

Pretty much all of the Yankee candles.
4. Mac or Benefit?

Hands down, Mac.

6. Favourite quote?

"This too shall pass."
7. Beauty/Style icon?
Here are some lovely ladies that inspire me with their unique style:

Maia Leech, Amy Bell, Anastasjia Louise, Marzia Bisognin, Zoe Sugg 
8. Favourite holiday destination?

Italy or New York.
9. Most used/repurchased beauty product?

Nivea Lip Balm
10. What do you like to do on a rainy day?

Stay tucked up in my pjs with my ipad and plenty of snacks, and listen to the sound of the rain.
11. Guilty pleasure?

Erotic fiction. And X-Factor.

Phew! That took longer than expected, cheers ladies! I really enjoyed writing this post, and I hope it gives you a little bit more of an insight in to me and the things I like.

I tag Alexandra and Maia to have a bash at this and my questions are:

1. Describe yourself in three words.

2. What is your holy grail beauty product?

3. Dream destination?

4. What is your star sign and do you think it fits your character?

5. Do you have any special items of jewellery that you wear every day?

6. Favourite Blogs or YouTube Channels?

7. Favourite item in your wardrobe?

8. An Artist or Author whose work inspires you?

9. Red lips or winged eyeliner?

10. Describe your perfect Summers day.

11. Do you have any OCDs or strange habits?

xx

March Wishlist

1. Pink Mohair Longline Coat - New Look
Nnngghh. I need this coat in my life. I tried it on in store a few weeks ago and I absolutely adore it. I mostly wear black and denim and this coat would be the perfect outerwear to chuck on and brighten up any outfit for Spring. Unfortunately as this is a perfect dupe for the popular Topshop coat that was a sell out, this coat is probably not going to be available for much longer... *strokes screen*

2. Skurar Series Plant Pot - Ikea
I think pretty much every beauty blogger/youtuber owns a Skurar plant pot to store their make up brushes! And for a whopping £2 who can blame them?! Ikea never fail to amaze me with their amazing value for money for the brilliantly designed homeware products. I love the pastel pink and green versions of this beautiful little pot with its clever lace style detailing.

3. Cyd Underwire Bra - Lonely Hearts Label
I discovered this lingerie brand through instagram and oh my. Delicate lace and silk vintage-inspired lingerie with a modern twist. The entire collection is absolutely gorgeous but if I had to pick a current favourite it would be the Cyd bra in lilac or mint green. Come to momma.

4. Sweethearts Perfect Blush - Too Faced
I'm such a sucker for packaging. I really shouldn't be able to justify spending £26 on a blusher to myself but this product looks so bloody pretty and tempting. I've managed to resist its siren call for another month..

5. Coltrane Boots - Jeffrey Campbell
Yep, I well and truly missed the Coltrane boat. It just went sailing on past as I stood on the shore forlornly waving my empty purse and shedding a tear as it disappeared into the horizon. I can't even get my hands on any decent dupes as my size sold out before I had chance to recover from my JC dreams. Forever alone.

6. Rose Bubble Bar and Enzymion Facial Moisturiser - Lush
A little bit of Lush lust to finish this months wishes. I love the Lush bubble bars and I prefer them to the bath bombs as I think having bubbles in my tub time is a must! Also, they are much better value; I got 6 uses out of my last Karma bubble bar! Roses are my favourite flowers and I can't get enough of rose scented beauty products, so the Rose bubble bar will definitely be my next Lush purchase. I got a sample pot of the Enzymion Facial Moisturiser on my last Lushie haul and this stuff is brilliant. I suffer with very oily skin and this is the first moisturiser I have used that I can apply before my make up and it really reduces the shine and oil that builds up throughout the day. It acts almost like a lightweight mattifying primer as a base for my make up and doesn't feel greasy at all; my skin drinks it up! Oh, and it smells bloody amazing as well.


What products are you dreaming of this month?
xx

February Favourites

Better late than never!

 Check out my latest favourites video for the fashion, beauty and other bits I have been loving recently. I'm even getting a bit saucy this month.. ooo matron!

xx

OOTD | Tres Cool

Hi guys! Just a quick outfitoftheday post and video. It's my first so I felt such a dork showing my clothes on camera; I'm no model but show some appreciation for the clothes and ignore my awkwardness ha.

Fedora Hat - H&M//Tres Cool Cropped T-Shirt - H&M//High Waist Skinny Black Trousers - H&M//Leopard Faux Fur Coat - eBay//Boots - Boohoo//Jewellery - Misc, Accessorize and Pandora

Art and Anxiety

I haven't made the time to do any artwork for so long now. Sometimes I think the reason why I suffer so much with my anxiety is that I'm not allowing myself to vent those emotions with a creative outlet. When I'm lost in drawing, writing or reading I'm completely absorbed and calm and I know I need to make more time to do these things that I love. I have been passionate about art since I was very little; I would spend hours and hours imagining stories and drawing the characters. My Grandparents are all very creative and growing up they really nutured my love for drawing, painting, sewing, writing, etc. Going through school was quite tough for me as I was bullied; I was always quite 'out-there' with the way I dressed and presented myself and a lot of people couldn't accept that and made me feel afraid to be myself. I remember always having a sketchbook with me and I would sit at the back of my classes doodling away and it helped me through the negative emotions I was going through at that time. I then went on to study Fine Art at college and this was a real rollercoaster ride for me. I went through a really shitty relationship and was taking drugs, I was hardly eating and weighed about six and a half stone. Amazingly, with the support of family and friends, I pulled through this and achieved top marks in my qualification and got offered a place at University. I left the crap behind and felt the best I had in ages. I ended up leaving University after the first year; I wasn't enjoying the course and I felt I had hit a wall with my artwork and that I wasn't going anywhere. I lost all confidence in my creative ability and since then I've been scared to put my pen to paper and try again. It's infuriating as doing my art used to be my release for all my feelings of fear and stress, and now I feel like my anxiety is holding me back from doing something I care about. I have made half-hearted attempts to sit and produce something, but it's been years since I was able to make art without worrying that it won't be good enough. Which is ridiculous, it's my art, it shouldn't matter what anyone else thinks.

Sorry for rambling on. The point of this post is for me to put my feelings in to words and to make a promise to myself that this year I am going to make a conscious effort to start making art again. For me. Starting this blog and my Youtube channel has made me realise how much I miss being creative and how important it is to me. It's in the very fibre of my being. So here it is. I promise to make more art.